I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that don’t work.
Until recently I hated that quote. Yes, it’s widely used but you know what always stood out to me? 10,000 times! I don’t want to get it wrong 10,000 times to get it right. That’ll take forever. In fact, I’d rather just get it right.
I’m beginning to see that’s part of my problem. I don’t want to fail. Not a terrible thing, but sometimes the only way not to fail is not to start in the first place, which is a failure in itself and makes one of those weird illogical loops that would probably make artificial intelligence short out.
Anyway, this learning to write process has been a great big bowl of trial and error as I figure out how to write, how to find time to write, how to make sure my brain is ready when I sit down to write, etc. Ultimately, I’ve been searching for what works for me. I’ve gotten it wrong a lot, but lately I think I’m starting to get it right. So now I think I like that quote, because no matter how many times you fail, as long as you learn from it, each one really does get you closer to success.
Which brings me to my super exciting news! Thanks to my amazing husband giving me time away from the kids, and everything I’ve been learning over the last months/years, I pounded out almost thirty thousand words in the past week and a half and finished the first draft of my novel. (Yay! Fireworks and celebrations!) Let me tell you, though, when they call it a rough draft, they really mean rough. It’s awful.
But it’s there. It’s all there. All 87,000-ish words. It means I can finally, finally start on that next ENORMOUS step of editing.
Something I both look forward to and dread with every fiber of my being.
Also, I got to meet Jerry Jenkins. How cool is that? The guys only written like a thousand books (I think it was 195, but that’s pretty close.)
See, check it out.
Left my name tag on. Oops. Maybe I’ll learn photoshop one day.
And look out that hair. I finally have some again. Not much, but a little. I actually kind of like it this length.
How are you doing this month? I know I’ve had a pretty big accomplishment, and I hope you have, too. But don’t let it doesn’t discourage you if you haven’t. We all move at our own pace. Whether you take one step or a hundred, you’re still closer to the finish than you were when you started. The important thing is to keep going.